This is getting hard!

I started Weight Watchers in February, so I've been on it for awhile now.  I know that they say this isn't so much a diet, more of a change in life style.  I have a confession...I use it as a diet!

I've done pretty awesome (if I say so myself!) and to this minute have lost 45.6 lbs.  That's more than a whole Aiden! Woot! Woot! Has this been easy? Hell. No.  I wanna eat crap all the time! You name it and if it's not from this house and I don't have to cook it...I'm in!  This leads to my problem.  It's getting very hard to stick to this diet.  I know this time of year (Thanksgiving and Christmas) is always hard, but honestly I wanna eat and more than just a little serving!

Weight Watchers online has a little chart so you can see a graph of your lovely weight loss.  At first mine was all downhill baby! And now?  It looks like a little roller coaster ride.  Up and down, up and down.  One week I'll lose, the next, I gain and then I'll lose what I just gained.  Then repeat that. See what I'm saying? Roller coaster.

I don't want to lose much more. Maybe 5 lbs. But those last 5 lbs might just take another year! It's already been a month or 2 of getting close and then cheating and gaining it back. Sigh.  It'll happen. I don't want to take it too far and lose too much. I know that I'm about exactly where I should be.  I just wish I could be more confident of when I get there, I can stay there.  Yeah, not likely if I don't stick to eating the way I'm supposed to be.

Why does it have to be so much work? I hate naturally skinny people! Just kidding...kind of!

I DID IT!!!!

Can you tell I'm a little excited with the all caps title??  It's official, I DID IT!!!!!  I am back to my pre-babies, pre-wedding weight!!!!  YAY!!!!

Do I have the same body as before...nope! I've had 2 babies people! And they came with large domes! :-) So most likely I'll never have that cute flat tummy that I never had to start with that I've thought about so fondly, but I've housed 2 babies in there and I'm proud of that! Plus, I hate sit ups and doubt you'll ever see me doing any!

I have lost 42 lbs since February! That's a whole Aiden...I've lost a whole Aiden since February!!!  It has not always been easy and this last week has been especially hard because I just couldn't seem to get full! But, I'm there, I made it!  I'm not so scared to get on a scale anymore and what a great feeling that is!!

Weight Watchers

After I had Emma the weight I had gained just did not want to go away. Yes, I know that you actually have to eat right and exercise too in order for that to happen, but this is me we're talking about...and I like things to just happen.  It was bad! After she was born, I was up to what I weight when I was still pregnant with Aiden.  Yikes!!  I never felt extremely fat, but I definitely wasn't thrilled with the way I looked either.  I started exercising (Zumba and the elliptical) and lost a few pounds but really just used the exercising as an excuse to eat more.  Plus, I'm addicted to fatty foods.  I don't know what kind of crack they put in there but I just couldn't/can't get enough!! When it started getting darker earlier and colder I fell off the Zumba wagon and of course the few pounds I lost came back, plus some.  When my "fat pants" started to get way too tight, I knew that I had to do something!!

I have a few friends that had/have been on Weight Watchers and it worked for them so I thought that would be what I would try.  I had to do some sort of program because trying on my own wasn't going well so far!  Of course, I would always put off joining saying, "After so & so's party" or "Not until after the holidays!"  Thankfully Weight Watchers always has join free deals right after the New Year so that's when I took the leap!!

Starting off I weighed 1--. You didn't really think I was going to put my actual weight there, did you?!?! Gasp! I'm not quite that comfy with it yet! :-) (I'm trying to find a "before" picture of me, but you know what? That's extremely hard when you're always the photographer! Here's one that I don't love but are you really supposed to love before shots when it comes to weight?)

Yikes!! Is that what I really look like??

I'm thrilled to say that as of today I have lost 36.6 lbs!!!! WOOT! WOOT! Has it been easy?? Not always! Sometimes I. Just. Want. To. Eat!!  But on weight watchers you don't really have to give up what you like, you can eat what you want just have portion control or find what you love but how to make it in a healthier way.  I do the online program because with 2 kids, my husband's schedule and just knowing me, I would never make it to a meeting.  I know online wouldn't work for everyone but it's great for me! I love the online program because there are TONS of recipes and if I'm not sure how many points something is I can go right online and find out.  I love it! (And no Weight Watchers is not giving me any sort of compensation for my opinion, it's just my own opinion!)

Now, I'm a girl that loves food so I do treat myself to what I call "Fat Day Friday" or whatever day of the week I want something not cooked in this house.  I just watch what I eat that day and enjoy myself.  If I didn't do that, surely I would binge and not have very good results come weigh in day. I also NEVER want to become one of those people that are super obsessed with it and all I can talk about is points and my weight.  I know that nobody else really cares to hear it, even though I'm excited about it! Being this is my blog, however, I may just bring it up now and again to keep myself motivated. :-)

Again, it's tough to find a recent pics of myself unless I've held the camera but...

Aiden & I on his birthday - June 7, 2011

Us again camping - July 2011

 I would still like to lose a little more weight, but I am beyond thrilled that I finally almost weigh what I did when Patrick and I got married! Yay!! Go me! Go me! :-)